Everything here is an artifact of a moment that has since disappeared, and so I cannot be bound to anything you see.

My health, both mental and physical, is more important than anything in this world. It’s all I have. This body & mind are home to me for this journey, so I have to do whatever maintenance is necessary to keep me standing strong.

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Stay blessed. I’ll be back when I feel like it.

thesalondesrefuse:

shop.LostQueens.com - 10% goes to the Allstate Purple Purse Foundation. FREE SHIPPING. 💜🔮

long-lostqueens:

As every day passes, another story of abuse by a lover crosses our paths. They’re as far reaching as celebrities and public figures, and as close to home as people in our social circles, family and friends, co-workers, even ourselves.

 

Love isn’t scars you deflect from when someone asks about them. It isn’t feeling like you have to stay or you’ll lose everything. It isn’t hurtful words and raised voices. It isn’t fear. It isn’t control. It isn’t ownership. It is not being alienated from your friends and family. It is not mental, physical, emotional or sexual abuse then apologies afterward – every single time.

A lot has been said and discussed concerning domestic violence recently, a lot of opinions and chatter about what is and what is not acceptable. Abuse is never okay. Blaming the victim of abuse is never okay. We as humans must hold ourselves accountable for our own actions and decision making. We must learn to express ourselves in ways that demonstrate the love we say we have for one another. In short, we must treat each other better.

 

If you have not been a victim of domestic violence, it’s important to take a step back and understand the psyche of a victim and not be so quick to judge their behaviors. It’s often fear, control, manipulation, blatant brainwashing, generational cycles, and lack of resources that cause a victim to stay or go back to their abusers. It is not simply a choice. 

 

Domestic Violence Awareness Month was first observed in October 1981 by the National Coalition Against Domestic Violence. For the entirety of this month, 10% of any purchase made on SHOP.LOSTQUEENS.COM will be donated to the Allstate Purple Purse Foundation, which partners with local, state and national domestic violence programs that aid in getting victims resources and financial freedom. In 98% of domestic violence cases, financial abuse keeps victims trapped. The Purple Purse foundation aims to combat that. 

 

If you find yourself in a domestic violence situation of any form, please get into immediate contact with the domestic violence hotline: thehotline.org 1-800-799-7233

 

Domestic violence victims that have support systems are less likely to be re-abused, so please reach out to someone when you can.

Models: trapezoidmouth & Shakiya

Photographer: fatleopard

Set Help: saritanoelle, paisleydarts, NikFourPeace

Creative Direction/Founder: thesalondesrefuse

I’m proud of my friends and of myself for the work put into this collection, and that it’s for such an important cause.

Head over to shop.lostqueens.com for some amazing jewelry. In the spirit of Domestic Violence Awareness, 10% of proceeds will be donated to AllState’s Purple Purse Foundation which has been working very hard to aid our sisters suffering from abuse.
Head over to shop.lostqueens.com for some amazing jewelry. In the spirit of Domestic Violence Awareness, 10% of proceeds will be donated to AllState’s Purple Purse Foundation which has been working very hard to aid our sisters suffering from abuse.

Head over to shop.lostqueens.com for some amazing jewelry. In the spirit of Domestic Violence Awareness, 10% of proceeds will be donated to AllState’s Purple Purse Foundation which has been working very hard to aid our sisters suffering from abuse.

Anonymous said:
What kind of advice would you give someone who recently started a job but the job is already making them miserable?

My advice is to deal but not get comfortable. Use having this job as a security blanket while you look for one you want.

progress (or something like it.)

i’ve got 12 weeks of unemployment checks, the rough drafts for sections of what will hopefully become my first completed body of work, more books than i think i can handle, a growing collection of incense/herbs/stones that i’ve poured my intentions into, and an empty feeling i can’t seem to shake to show for the three months since becoming unemployed. time that has been spent, appropriately, working. on myself.  on projects i never knew i had a passion for. on the relationships in my life (or what’s left of them).

i know that time to call your loved ones and write all day and read as many books as you can is a luxury most people, myself included, are usually not afforded. i know this gift is temporary. and most of all, i know someone else needs these checks more than i do. yet when i look back on the three years i spent working through depression, anxiety, and suicidal thoughts—i’m grateful for this intermission from “the real world.”

that job was holding me in place. since leaving i’ve cracked through the surface of myself, exposing what i had buried so deep within. i’ve had time to remember what matters to me besides paying bills on time. i’ve had time to revisit myself. to see what’s broken down over the years and what i’m so pleased to find is still in there. still ticking.

a few days ago i went through my archives, both digital and on paper. i grew infuriated seeing that i have spent so many years convinced that planning was taking action, and that i had basically been a spectator in my own life thus far. it was reminiscent of what lena dunham’s father said about her of not being present in her life because she was too busy turning each moment into a scene and each person a character. i can’t say i’m surprised because before i was a writer, i was an avid reader. i’ve always been escaping the moment, with words, one way or another.

what’s next for me is of course unclear. for once, i’m not up to my ass in plans. i barely use my calendar. i don’t have a work schedule to work around. it’s terrifying, honestly. i wouldn’t trade it for anything. having a job teaches you skills that make you an asset to someone else’s plans. this freedom  is teaching me how to be an asset to myself.

"I release all darkness. I accept all light."

Weather interfered with visibility and sleep held on tight this morning, but thank The Universe for live streams. Thank you for this moon.
Weather interfered with visibility and sleep held on tight this morning, but thank The Universe for live streams. Thank you for this moon.

Weather interfered with visibility and sleep held on tight this morning, but thank The Universe for live streams. Thank you for this moon.

BTS | Playing mannequin for @lost.queens today. 

photo cred: @paisleydarts
BTS | Playing mannequin for @lost.queens today. 

photo cred: @paisleydarts

BTS | Playing mannequin for @lost.queens today.

photo cred: @paisleydarts

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